Wednesday, January 19, 2011

Keeping the Faith

Everyone goes through times where their strength and faith are tested, that is just the way life goes.  What we have to remember is Jesus is with us every step of the way and it is only when we forget that, that the hard times seem unbearable.   I know this because the last month or so has been the hardest time in my life thus far and I started to feel a breakdown coming.  I have always believed in God and I have always prayed but sometimes I have a hard time giving my troubles over to the Lord.  I forget sometimes that He wants me to give everything to Him and that He will take care of me.  Why do I forget?  I guess it is because I get caught up in the day to day of life and don't leave enough time during the week to sit down and really pray.  I don't always say thank you when things work out and more than I care to admit I take for granted the blessings in my life. 

About a week before Christmas my mom called and told me she had breast cancer.  I felt as if I had just been punched in the gut.  Panic immediately took over and all I could think about was what if my mother dies?  My mom is already not in the greatest health and the thought of her having something else wrong with her was terrifying. 

On top of this I was dealing with issues at my son's preschool.  Apparently some boys in his class were picking on him and he no longer wanted to go to school.  There is a lot more on this issue but I will have to fill you in later.  Long story short I had to find him a new school before I headed up to Ohio to take care of my mom.  She was scheduled to have her mastectomy on January 7th so that only gave me 3 days to find a school that had an opening, visit the school and sign him up. 

I prayed everyday for strength and guidance and never did I lose my faith in the Jesus.  I got my son in a new school and he loves it.  My mom had her mastectomy and they got all of the cancer and there was none in her lymph nodes.  Things may not always go the way we think they should and more times then we want we will be tested.  Just remember that God is amazing and he is always there for us especially in our toughest moments.


3 comments:

~Debra said...

Janelle~I am continuing to pray for your Mom & pray for the preschool situation!

Janelle said...

Thank you so much. We are still waiting to hear if she will have to do chemo, but won't find that out until next week after she sees the oncologist. The waiting is the worst.

Pamela said...

Bless you--a lot to go through. I did with my mother 25 years ago. I've thanked God daily that I still have her with me. I'll pray your mother will have an easy recovery.