Friday, February 4, 2011

My Mom

As some of you know we found out my mom had breast cancer the week before Christmas and then four weeks ago she had a mastectomy.  I went to Ohio to be with her during her surgery and take care of her for the first week after.  Although it was a long week I was really glad I was able to be there for her.  I knew it was going to be emotional, but I don't think that anyone or anything can prepare you to look at your mother without her breast. 

When it was time for me to change the dressing I knew it was going to be hard, but I wasn't prepared for the emotion that overcame me.  I tried to keep it together for my mom, but it was hard and she saw me crying.  In that moment all I wanted to do was wrap my arms around my mom like I did when I was a kid and cry.  Of course I couldn't do that because in addition to her having just had her left breast removed, she suffers from severe RA and just touching her causes her so much pain.  The amazing thing about mothers is they know when they are needed and I needed my mom just as much as she needed me.  She let me cry and then I finished doing what I needed to do and we sat down and played Boggle. 

I love my mom so much and I am scared for her.  I know that God is with her and will help her get through this so I am leaning on Him during this time to get me through it also.  Today she had the port put in because next Thursday she begins the second half of this long fight.  She starts her first round of chemotherapy. 




7 comments:

Lynne said...

I just read your post about your mum, i do hope she is doing ok, try to be strong, your in my prayers, x Lynne

Pamela said...

I will pray for your mother. I went through this with my mother, too, and it's very hard. Thirty years later I'm happy to still have my mother to turn to.

New York State of Mom said...

Wow. It really was great that you were able to be there for your mother during this. I'm praying that God sends her the strength to fight this and be with you also to stand by her.

Janelle said...

Thank you so much everyone. I appreciate any and all prayers you can send our way. It is so hard being far away, but I am hoping I can get up there next month...if it ever stops snowing up north.

SocialStudiesSoubrette said...

Praying for you and your Momma. How wonderful that you could be there with her but how terrifying it must have been. Hugs

Gemma said...

All the love and prayers we have coming your way for you and your mum.

I hope the treatment goes smoothly and It is great you have been there for her through this.

Take care xxx

Marie said...

Janelle, I will be praying for your mom and for your family. The heartache you feel to have to be the one to take care of your parent is one that is all to familiar. Prayers friend. Email me anytime you need to "talk".